Whose fault?

Amar Shah · Whose fault?

Whatever.
Whatever shuts you up, whatever
puts your fears aside, whatever lets
me be alone again with my own thoughts,
whatever lets me keep my pride, whatever.

I'm sorry, baby. Didn't mean to push
you out. I just have so much on my mind
I'm still not well, you know? Thank you, always
being here. Thank you, you know I don't
deserve it.
All the worthless pleasantries,
humilities, whatever trinkets buy
you off, whatever gets you to shut up,
whatever it takes
to be alone, to be
alone, no longer suffocating, no more
revolted, no concern to you, no concern
at all, keep your precious worries to
yourself, I ask you honestly, why would you
waste your worries, wishing well for me?

I was meant to roam the plains alone.
I am a mighty lion, can you not
see what I am? Can you shut up? Shut
your mouth, I'm gonna finish, I am
a mighty lion. I have no kin, I have no
home, I need no friends, no wife, no
one—I only want you to shut up.

Just shut up shut up shut up shut up I
want to hear my own voice come back I want
to hear my voice whose fault? your fault
your fault it's all your fault woman you
how could it be me how could it be mine
can't you see the cage I'm in I only know
the cage and you stand there pitying me
I'd rip you limb from limb if only for
the cage—
who put me here? I don't
remember, it was long ago before, they
took me from my home, my natal home.